Boy’s aren’t supposed to cry. I heard this a lot when I was growing up. Hide your feelings is another way of putting it. That’s what I did when I was in middle school through college. No, that’s a lie, I still hide some feelings, but I am way more open now than I used to be. I also put a lot of weight into what other people thought of me, more than what I thought of myself. Now, I know that way of thinking was very damaging to myself in many ways, socially, mentally and physically.
I held my emotions in until I exploded. I remember coming home from middle(?) school one day and writing “I am stupid” tens of times in a single sheet of 8.5×11 single lined paper. I don’t recall the reason why, but I have to assume I thought that “I was stupid”. After that I started to go to therapy every week for a number of months. I can only remover a handful of things that happened, taking an IQ test and forgetting what the Eiffel Tower was called, even though I knew the location and going to the comic store afterwards to get Usagi Yojimbo and TMNT comics. Continue reading Mental Health→
This morning I received the Mandatory Items list for the upcoming Hurricane Heat, HH-073, this weekend. Out of the required items, I have to pick up 10lbs of canned goods and a sharpie (the one I have isn’t waterproof). I still have yet to get the butterflies, but I’m sure they will hit Friday morning.
Now I just need to memorize the following…
I will always place the mission first.
I will never accept defeat.
I will never quit.
I will never leave a fallen comrade.
My first entry into Spartan Race’s Hurricane Heat is two weeks out and I am a little nervous and excited at the same time. This will be my biggest challenge to date. I think this will test me more than the Spartan Beast as I am able to go at my own pace and don’t have to worry about teammates (as no one wants to SPARTAN UP with me).
My training for the longer races near the end of the year continues. I’ve added a camelbak HAWG to my training gear and when I run I have 10lbs added to the backpack. Soon I will add in 5 additional pounds and continue to add in 5 pounds every week until I hit 40 pounds. That should get my legs, core and back ready for the hurricane heat in early August.
I received the following email from the WIPEOUT Run people this morning…
Dear Portland WIPEOUTRUNNERS,
Due to circumstances beyond our control, we are canceling the upcoming WIPEOUTRUN on July 11 at Clark County Events Center. You have the option to transfer your entry to the Seattle WIPEOUTRUN on July 18 at the Washington State Fair Events Center in Puyallup. If you do not choose this option you will receive a full refund for entry, fees, and additional items.
Unfortunately, I cannot do the Seattle run because of prior commitments. Bummer, this run looked fun. Hopefully the wipeout run portland will be back next year.
In my last 4 races, I have ran with a strained calf. 3 I knew about before hand, and the final one I strained it within the first mile (The Freeze). Since I do not want to continue the trend, I’m taking a month of off running. *sigh*
I know the creators of The Freeze were hoping for terrible (i.e. freezing) weather and the day started out that was at 32 degrees F, which IS freezing. Unfortunately, by the time I had finished the race, the temperature was in the upper sixties. Not exactly what The Freeze organizers were looking for. Fortunately for them, weather was out of their control, but the race was not.
For the inaugural The Freeze, the competitive heats started at 9 with the open heats starting at 10. I arrived around 9:50 and there were a number of people who were ready to start the race. I will still getting on my gear when the load speakers stated that the next wave of people would be leaving in 5 minutes. I still have to warm up and stretch, so I knew I was not going in this next wave. By the time I was ready to go, the first finishers of the competitive wave were starting to cross the finish line. The top finishers completed the race at a little over 55 minutes. I know I’m not fast, so I gave myself an hour and a half to finish the course. Continue reading The Freeze→
While it’s not an Obstacle Course Race, I participated in the SUPER PLUNGE for Special Olympics Oregon over the past weekend. The Super Plunge is 24 plunges in 24 hours, with 1 plunge every hour. It was cold, exhausting and 100% fun.